Wednesday, August 22, 2007

WEDNESDAY RAMBLINGS

-Why oh why does it hurt. I keep playin "I'm Walkin On Sunshine" over and over in my head evertime I think about it, it hasn't gone away yet.
-When will all this hard work payoff. If I took a dirt nap tomorrow what would it matter?
-I printed out an application for "The Biggest Loser", will I fill it out and send in? Probably not. There's an issue of pride standing in my way. I broke down and asked for help about 8 years ago, after months of testing(for gastric bypass) , being poked (not in the fun way) and proded, it ended a long depression b/c healthcare providers didn't think I fit the profile. What a joke. I'm seriously at a point where if I don't change something soon whether it be the scenery or physical appearance, I'll feel left behind by everthing and everyone. I already feel there's some big movement happening w/o me.
-Wednesdays suck. Humpday my ass.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

That Song.

Current mood: contemplative

Artist: Corinne Bailey Rae
Album: Corinne Bailey Rae
Year: 2006
Title: Like A Star
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Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,]
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Now I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands


Sometimes a song comes along that speaks volumes. Speaks to emotions long past, forgotten, or even the here and now. How they have the power to make you feel, taste, smell the moments just as strongly as when they were happening. I've grown in many ways in the past few years, forgiven......forgotten, and learned to turn the switch on or off emotions regarding certain moments, feelings or people(survival mechanism I guess). Then along comes a song that grabs you by the back of the pants and drags you back to the ground. Makes it all real again. There are many songs that have meaning to me. Reminding me that the "switch " isn't always under my control.......